She Speaks Her Mind...

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Lost. All of a Sudden.

Not sure bout the future, the relationship, the people, the place and the world.

People goes through stages of life:

Kids -> School -> School -> School -> Work -> Career -> Relationships -> Get Married -> Have Kids -> Grow Old -> Retire -> Die

Some followed all, but some don't. But of cos, everyone dies eventually..

I wonder how people can put so much commitments in things they do, in regards to studies, work and even relationships.

Why people can be so determined to study for 4 to 7 years for a degree or even master, work in a company for 10 to 20 years doing the same thing, being in a relationship for 7 to 10 years and eventually get married, and still able to love each other till they grow old.

So how commited or determined am i?

I've been wondering...is life being too good for me till...probably experiencing some setbacks may brighten up stages of MY life..

I'm crazy, isn't it?

Haven been myself for the past few days..I laughed out loud with my friends and colleagues..I still play, talk and enjoy..but strange..i seem to have another side of me who's actually not as happy.

My mood = Unsure. Neither happy nor sad..the me, now, just wants to be alone. Not to commit suicide or bring myself into depression state..but to be alone to think about how i gonna place my footprints to the future of June's life..

My boss asked, "so what's ur plans after u graduate?"

Me: "Honestly, i still dunno yet..."

She Wrote What She Felt At
Thursday, July 03, 2008

Comments:

hey babe, it's funny isn't it... that's exactly what i'd been thinking the past few days... that i wanna isolate my thoughts and feelings and i wanna isolate myself physically and even though i function normally around people, i couldn't open up anymore. a lot has to do with roland and my parents though.

i'm seriously bored in office now. been slacking and doing nothing for the past 2 months... my brains are rusty already... sigh.

hey i was telling steven, we shld durian feast one day. you eat durians right? =p

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raine : 2:47 PM