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Thursday, October 26, 2006

been studying and studying non-stop for the past one week..even during weekends..

i'm not that stress though..perhaps i tried not to put in too much hope to score high..so i wont get disappointed so easily..

i thought Daniel could help me overcome my fear of Accounts..i thought i would fall in love with it becos of him..becos of the way he taught us..but NO! accounts is still as boring and it sucks~
dont understand why some people can be an accountant..its damn hard core mad to the max!

Accounts burned the times i'm supposed to study for my Marketing..so now i have another module that i can just aim for a pass..

am not going crazy..am juz gonna try my best la..

hmm..not a good period for me too..

am studying for my exams..but having some family problems..

problems arises since grandma came to stay with us..

initially it was said to be only 2 weeks..but now its gonna be 2 months!!or perhaps...more than that..
and in bout 1 month..my uncle from Australia is coming to stay too!! n for another 2 months!

no rooms no rooms...my house is not a hotel!

initially grandma was slping in my room..and i have to move to slp with my parents..but am having insomnia so hav to move back to room..n grandma has to move to study room to sleep..

very unfilial huh?

i kinda dislike grandma to stay over for too long..she has always been the cause of the quarrel between my parents..
she may say things that are untrue that causes the conflict..

she may say things that'll hurt others..

we knew attention is what she needs..and we had tried our best..

try sitting beside her and listen to her for 30mins..you may choose to shut your ears after awhile..

am hoping time will fly even faster now..so things will be back to normal..we'll still be happy families of 4..

anyway darl brought me to Canele last sat, supposed to go on our 1st anniversary..they have the best pastries, cakes and chocolates there!

really love it~recommend everyone to try

http://www.canele.com.sg

Le Royale..the best cake ever!

cant remember the name of this, it tasted like small cream puffs..anyway the top was already in our stomach thats why it looks a little funny..haha

will definitely go back again to try all the pastries! thumbs-up!

*Loving each other was never easy..
Lots of effort are needed to stabilise this relationship..
Communication plays the largest part..
Have a good talk with each other..
Quarrels will still happen..but after each time..both of you will learn to understand and compromise..*

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Thursday, October 26, 2006
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Friday, October 20, 2006

**I'm missing the pig in my heart now**

End of semester exams are coming..3 papers in all at the end of this month..

i left with like less than 2 weeks..soooooOOOooo.........must PIAaAaaa already!!!

mix feeling now..i wish the time will pass faster..even better if its 8th Nov now..the day after my last paper~but yet~i dont want the time to pass so fast cos i'm afraid i cant finish my studies..

but yet~i wish its over now so i can enjoy..and hopefully there's a part time job for me to survive during my holidays..

but yet~i don't want it to pass so fast becos as time passes faster..means i get old faster!!!

but yet~i want time to pass faster becos...................................

but yet~hgkfdgdiuihkhuyfdtrsjiohoijoi

SLAP* What the hell you want biatch?!

i think work sux!

Study sux too!

becos Study can make me a fat woman!

Study causes me to spend alot!

Study gives me stress!

Study forces me to memorise stuffs!

Study challenges my stupidity!

Study gives me insomnia!

Study ASK me to spend lesser time with my darl.. huh?excuses..

But i still prefer study to work..hurhur

i wanted to stack up my whole kitchen with snacks cos i really need to chew something in order to concentrate on my studies..but if this goes on..i gonna turn into a big fat woman!

and darl gonna ditch me for Patricia Mok...bcos he *toot* f*t woman! Lol *roll on the floor* roll on the bed* *roll and roll*

ignore this post of mine..i juz need to de-stress~

when the time is ripe, i'll rush to my freezer and grab my ice cream cone out to eat!

and after that i'll point my middle finger out of the window to the f*cking haze that's giving me sore throat! (you think i dare?)

After all the complains...

Back to reality..... (-.-!) (!-.-) (-.-!) (!-.-)

sTuDy...............aRr hmm..........

~Whats the direction to the future of ours~

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Friday, October 20, 2006
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Omg! i'm so intelligent! LOL..i managed to upload song onto my blog..wahahah~

i guess everyone will think "what's the big deal about it?"

i can be considered the Last person to have a song played in the blog ba.. bOoOoo~

But hey..i have ways to find out MYSELF without getting anyone's help this time OK! i'm always very dependent on others to teach/help me with stuffs..but this time round..NO! And i'm so proud of myself! Neh Neh Neh... =P

Just wanted to try whether it works so i just choose any song to upload - Unfaithful by Rihana

Dont be mistaken ok..it meant NOTHING..

Alright, i'm happy and satisfied now! Time for bed!

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
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Monday, October 16, 2006

Pictures uploaded in Rockyou!

I know the whole slideshow is a mess~a mixture of my self taken photos + activities + friends + many many..i'm just too lazy to arrange them la...so bear with it hur..

Anyway that Adidas Cap is my 1 year anniversary gift from darl. Murhur..shall wait for him to clear my wishlist ONE BY ONE.. *wink*

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Monday, October 16, 2006
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

had a pretty tiring weekend this week. i'm like going out, spend money and enjoying myself as though i'm freaking rich when i'm not recieving anymore income..

hmm..must budget myself!!!

darl accompanied me to PartyWorld @ chinatown on friday. It was supposed to be a gathering session with some Mectron ex-colleagues..ended up most of them didn't turn up..so left with Richard n his gf AND his friends..people in their late 20s -.-! cOmMuNication GaP! i was so disappointed and bored like mad!

but nvm! i love singing! so i sang and sang like nobody's business! haha

we left at about 1am..n expectedly, Mr Richard Mok couldn't fetch us back to jurong, so no choice..got to take Night Rider..

And joker us..didn't know where the bus stop is..so we walked from South Bridge Road to New Bridge Road..n from New Bridge Road back to South Bridge Road..and we turn round and round around Chinatown until finally Richard called us and tried to search thru street directory or internet (whatever..) for that bus stop..

We followed his instructions and headed towards Outram Road..we had already walked bout 1 1/2hour. When we reached there..there was no NR5 at the bus stop!!!

SINCE we already walked so far..we decided to walk further down to try our luck again! so we walked towards Tiong Bahru and FINALLY we found the bus stop with NR5..so we waited for 30mins for the bus...

the bus came...Thank god! we were shoooo happy! but the stupid idiot fOoKing bus drove like Initial D, REFUSED TO STOP! "HiS mOtHeR!"

darl was pissed la..in the end we took cab home..he planned to write a complain letter =\ but after some time, he calmed down and thought it was quite an interesting WALK..cos we did alot of crap during the journey. we were singing "Chu Lu" by Power Station damn loudly as we walk.. *SiAo*

by the time we reached home - 5am........yEs! binGo~its 5am! freaking tired!

the next day we woke up bout 1pm, had lunch while watching Little Mermaid Dvd (yea..i rented that show), then mingfu asked us out to King's Ice Cream Factory cos got promotion. we went there and there was a long queue! (sIan! Typical singaporeans!! <- and of cos..that includes us la..lol)

we all bought quite a few cartons of ice cream. Then, its delivery time! First, back to my home to put the ice cream in the fridge..then to Jecy's house to pass her some, then to Mingfu's house and to MingLi's house

it was already 7pm and i'm supposed to attend Corine's bday celebration!!! i'm so sad lor..i desperately wanted to go! but it was at Hougang..by the time i reach there bout 9pm already *sob*

"Corine san, so sorry i didnt attend..i really wanted to go..i was so excited to meet T01 classmates~so excited to attend your party but everything was too rush. Promise we will meet up soon ok! Hope you enjoy yourselves that day! :)"

Anyway since i decided to give it a miss, we went Ang Mo Kio to eat western food. The stall is named "Botak Jones", we heard it is own by a botak ang mo. When we reached there, there was a long queue man~this shows how popular their food is...and strangely its just located at a normal coffee shop under a HDB flat.

hmm..the food was nice, but not EXTREMELY nice. At least it was more special compared to those normal chinese western food stalls, this looks more classy to eat even when you're dining @ a coffee shop.hehe.

we went to play pool after that..played till 1am and finally HOME SWEET HOME!!

Tomorrow, or should i say today, is already Sunday, guess i might stay at home to rest and perhaps STUDY!!! my end-of-semester exams are coming and i haven start my revision yet.ShuckS! panicK aLrEaDy..

i have some pics to upload but i'm TOO tired now (Sunday, 3.25am), will post some other days..

Nite nite! =)

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Sunday, October 15, 2006
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

There are 2 shitty, sickening, irritating, sucky men in my current life..

One is my dearest bf..

The other one is my dearest brother..

My bf keeps picking up a quarrel with me..he gets fed up easily..especially recently..n scold me becos he said i 'bu ting hua'!! he claimed that i behaved like a kid...well....thats when i'm sick what.. ~0.o~

And I nearly went into concussion becos of my brother whose self-dictionary will never contain the word 'Sorry'. He accidentally bump onto my forehead with his elbow and not only he did not aplogise to me..he still blame me for walking towards him!!!

hmm...

what's going on in these 2 men's mind hur??

nevertheless..i still love them very much..

because behind all this shit..they still care alot for me..

:-)

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
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Monday, October 09, 2006

Happy 1st Anniversary!

Darl n i have been together for 1 year already..thats fast man!

We had plans..so much plans..but unfortunately i dont think we can go ahead with it..

What happen?

because...i THINK i have mild food poisoning!

am now waiting for the stirring disgusting substance to reach up to my throat and puke it out of my mouth! lol..damn gross, i know.

not gonna force it out becos i'm super afraid of vomiting..i hate the choking feeling after that..so watashi wa am controlling!

felt very uncomfortable now!!! my stomach has been stirring and growling the whole night.

had a serious headache last night too...woke up in the middle of the night..drank milo n ate 2 tablets of panadols.. :'(

darl's gonna accompany me to the doctor later..silly him decided not to turn up for work and came down immediately to take care of me..*so touch*

but! he's sleeping and snoring like a pig now on my bed -.-!

bEsT..................

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Monday, October 09, 2006
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Thursday, October 05, 2006

i am beLi VeLi VERY eXtRemELy sad now..bEcos My Leg is f*cKing PainfuL!!!

sOb sOb Sob* wAAaAAAaGgGgHhhhhhhHhhhhhhhh~~~~PAIN AH!!!

serve me right for not going to the doctor earlier AGAIN!

the previous time my ear had a lump, i took like ages to go and see the doctor, and becos i was abit too late..i had to do a minor surgery!

n this time.........there's an infection by the name of idiotic 'WART' is developing at the foot of my right leg. eGgy sHit!

the doctor said i shld've come earlier..cos now it has grown quite deep inside.. sOb* so now i have to go back for regular checkups to remove it slowly..............

n i hope it doesn't grow that deep that she has to refer me to TTSH Skin Centre. :'(

HaiZ..i think i didn't pay for my medical fees in my previous life thats y i'm returning them this life..

i've been going for surgeries and doctors since young..n had spent more than 10 over k on medical fees..what's up with me man?!

JUNE, cant you just live healthily??

i'm sho sad la..very very sad now..i NeEd ChocOLaTe! *cRy*

my leg is fooking pain now OK! n meanwhile i cant wear all my fanciful shoes..i have to wear track shoes that is comfortable for my leg..to avoid abrasions....

alright..i think i'm sway enough already. Please dont add on anymore tragedies to me, i think i've got enough of my retribution already if i've done any wrongs in my whichever life......

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Thursday, October 05, 2006
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Last night i had a super scary + sad dream..

it felt so real..as though it was happening to me now..in reality..

i tried so hard, struggling to wake up to realise everything was just a dream.

i woke up feeling guilty that why did i have such a dream?when i looked at the time, it was only 5am in the morning..i tried to get back to sleep still holding on the fear in me..

the fear of losing someone precious..the fear of not being able to tell the person how much he/she meant to you before he/she leaves you..and i mean forever.....

in that dream, i felt lonely and sad..i tried many ways to tell myself to be stronger..i wanted to cry but i controlled and i tried not to think negatively..

its so strange how u can actually control the emotions in your dreams at times..does it mean the You in your dreams is the You in reality?

Are some dreams meant to be hints in reality?

Or are they actually controlled by your own brains?

ha..i guessed i just need to sleep early, have plentiful plentiful and more plentiful of rest..

i make sure i curse and swear if i ever have this dream again..its scaring the freaking hell out of me~oh my god! i ought to be shot! serious..

i'm not gonna type out the actual dream cause its too sinful already..everyone will screw me up too. =X

And strangely..that dream is made up of many funny funny people too..there're even my secondary school friends whom i haven contact for a long time and places i've nv been to in reality before! 0.o?? hur??

oh my.....i need sleeping pill pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee.....or pills that can stop me from dreaming...

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
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Monday, October 02, 2006

Happy Moments!

i simply love meeting up with close friends whom i seldom get to meet. usually we have alot to share with each other..its oh-so-memorable especially when we talk about the past memories.

i met up with meizhen last thursday @ westmall BK..our usual chit chatty place :)
we sat there from 6pm till 9pm and was chatting non-stop. we had so much to tell each other..

i remembered during secondary school when she used to sit beside me, i get to see her everyday in class n we'll start gossiping and talking non-stop.

now that we each have our own stuffs to do..we only get to see each other once in a while. ayy..Really hope to have more of this gatherings..

Last saturday, i met up with xuan. FINALLY we get to shop together! its been a long time since e 2 of us went town shopping..the last time we went was around August to get wahwah's present n we ended up shopping too! haha

we both bought a top each from the same shop 'Destined Indulgence'. i thought their clothes were very nice~

n xuan n i were quite pissed with the sales aunties in another shop la. they were the ones who were 'over-friendly', kept pushing us to try jeans..n they shoot out some sarcastic words when we decided not to buy any. sH*t tHeM! =P

ooh..n we bought a watch for our bfs too..those cheapo cheapo ones..each for bout $19.90? haha..i know darl doesn't wear watch.but i thought he can wear a cheap one to at least see the time. it was a rather BIG and UNIQUE watch~after all its a trend to wear BIG watches too! so..i got that for him :D

after the shopping i went to meet darl n his friend, Qingli n his msian gf PLUS another msian couple. i suddenly felt weird going out with msians that day..hmm..nvm bout that. anyway we had dinner @ Sakae n initially planned to go chinese garden..but we changed to sing K at Shenton Way PartyWorld. -.-!

the ktv ended bout 1.30am then Qingli brought us to their so-called "Orchard Gudang" , its a route around town area where those sporty cars do their roundings..

all i can say was........these people are mad!dont wanna live already ah? drive until so fast!!

but it was an experience for me la..to see so many cool cars @ one go..all the evos n subarus..these people are rich man~

alright..love getty pics taken with xuan is coming up soon~haiya..that girl ah..i wanted to steal her scanned pics one..who knows the pictures turned out look like 'ghost' lol. Lousy la Xuan! =P kidding kidding..

xuan!!! shld i buy this dress???

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Monday, October 02, 2006
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