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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

The inner side of me?

perhaps most of my friends only understand me as what i always appear to be - cheerful, chatty, "cute", friendly bla bla bla...

all along there's another side of me whom nobody knows at all..but he found 'her'..

he manage to dig out the hidden inner side of me, all the flaws and weaknesses in me - the one who's always avoiding..who's always having doubts in whatever she do..who's not confident..who's not knowledgable enough..

it hurts so much when someone tells u what u actually are..but den on the other hand..u get to understand ur true self even more and start to change for the better..

i need to really motivate myself becos i'm the only one who can encourage myself to strive harder..he's not gonna be there for me cause he wanted me to depend on myself..

people may not understand why he cant be those bf who supports his gf in everything she does..but to me..his intentions were good..he just wanted to help me..to find the confident ME..

i always thought that its either i must make the effort to change myself or i juz continue avoiding all the way and accept whatever comes in..i chose to do the first one..

i know its gonna be vy tough and stressful but i have to do this..before i knock on the wall and die for nothing..

"god please give me more time..."

She Wrote What She Felt At
Tuesday, June 13, 2006

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